August 24, 2014

Moments. And finding myself.

Just before we left Australia, I met up with a friend and, in between us chatting about where to get nice kids clothing and feeling like we needed to move outside because the children were messing up the cafe, we both found that we were questioning ourselves. As mothers, as wives, as people who wanted a career.

Lately, I've felt like I am attempting everything at a 50% capacity.

I want to take photographs, both on a personal and professional level because doing that makes me feel happy, but is that selfish? I did choose to be a stay-at-home mother.

I want to breastfeed but I am at a point where I know it has run its course. I am exhausted. Mason still has at least 3 breastfeeds through the daytime and through the night, is nursing almost endlessly (Thank you, Teeth). I don't believe I have had over 3 hours of consecutive sleep in the last 5 months. I am working on a whole other post regarding my breastfeeding journey with Mason.

In other ways, I feel my body fails me some days. It functions, but not to it's fullest ability as a woman. But there's another place and time for that story.

Suffice it to say I have enjoyed these last few weeks. I haven't spent too much time thinking about anything. I am mama to a charismatic toddler. I chase him around and feed him. I lie down for afternoon naps with him. I don't worry about much. I am just his mama.

I get my camera out when I feel the urge. I go for a walk if I want to. Sometimes, I have a slice of cake just before dinner.

I let go of my thoughts on what things should be like, and just accept what they are for the moment.

August 17, 2014


This is what it's looked like for us lately. We spent our first ten days in Bali up in Balian, a quiet village about 2 hours north of Seminyak. There is nothing but black sand beach and river stones (aka Mason's new favourite toy). There is no denying I will miss the quiet but the city girl in me is happy to be in the hustle and bustle of it all (ask me again in a week though..)

August 9, 2014

A day with Luisa Brimble

Last Saturday I was lucky enough to spend a day with the incredible Luisa Brimble. Photography aside, Luisa is one of the kindest, most down-to-earth human beings I have ever had the privilege of meeting.

By the time I finally got to the very (like, seriously.. VERY) crowded Paramount Coffee Project in Surry Hills, I was giddy with excitement. Within minutes I caught sight of the pint-sized, unassuming lady. She gave me the biggest bear hug and from there, it felt very natural, and very easy. She taught me things from controlling my ISO to trusting myself.

Suffice it to say, I am struggling to cull photos for this post. Thank you to The Local Harvest Collective and Pasta Emilia.

Warning: A LOT of food was involved. So. Much. Food.

I left feeling so inspired! For the most part I couldn't believe these were photos I'D taken. They're probably the best ones I've ever taken (in my opinion, anyway). I am so grateful to Luisa for sharing her knowledge. 

While I am absolutely buzzing to "collaborate, collaborate, collaborate", I am looking forward to the next two months of rest and holiday.

August 4, 2014


A few weeks ago, we roadtripped to Victoria's Mount Buller for a bit of powdery fun* as part of Luke's 31st birthday. It was the coolest experience watching Mason discover snow.. He touched it, and touched it. Again and again, as if he was not too sure of it. Then, of course, he tried to put it his mouth.. Ugh. That stops eventually, right?

Mason and I spent most of our time on the toboggan and having hot chocolates (and babycinos). I would definitely say my favourite part of the trip was dressing Mason in ridiculously bulky snow outfits and then watch him try to find his centre of gravity like a baby penguin. And of course, the divine Italian restaurant downstairs where we ate 4 out of our 6 dinners.

*Said "fun" was probably mostly enjoyed by the husband. The uncoordinated (myself) do not particularly enjoy boobie traps like wet, icy floors.